hope we are seeing each other again:')

as salam

p/s: sila mainkan video y atas untuk lebih effect ketika membaca post ini


oke today's post is going to be dedicated to my dearest friend ainaa syazani rosli who's going to fly to US tomorrow  (today da pon..already 12am meh) so here it goes..

dear ainaa,
hey girl..i tot of calling you actually today (yesterday) but i'm sure we are going to here not more than crying sound each of us..if not it'll be just me who'll be crying..you know how I cried before this..hehe..malu pulak(>.<) save it for tommorrow (today) at the airport je lah all the tears..

hey again..hehe..you take care of yourself there..you are going alone but you are not there in bumi orang US tu..may Allah bless you di bumi US..you must be really glad/happy/super excited to be back in your birth place..hee..be happy there..enjoy your life..kutip banyak2 pengalaman kat sane..jgn lupa share cite ngn sy..da lame xdgr awk bercerita/ranting..haha..hey seriously gonna miss hearing them for real..already missed you:')
last but not the least..jangan lupa Allah dear:) He always with us..if you can find usrah kat sane better lah..keep on with it..
plus you have you camera rite..do capture lots of pictures and share them through FB if possible..hehe..

DO: eat well.live well.smile a lot.laugh when ever you can.cry don't make it a habit.home is what you gonna miss the most and also the food so don't be too homesick.pray to Allah.make dua always. (T_T) be a strong girl d(^_^)b if things fall just remember how to get it back up again.make mak and bapak awk proud..hee :D

DON'T: do drug.drinking while driving..hee..kawen xbgi tahu.(>.~).skip class.cry too much(say it again).be sad.

so here i re-post the video that i made last year..erm just thing that can remind me of you..:') tapi y bawah tu..y atas tu just dedicated for you (T_T)

ok tata:)

**sayang awak kerana Allah:)

weep~

sometimes you just need to weep every now and then..weep all you want..you don't have a proud tear duct..so weep..all is better after that..

bola..oh beskal..!!

salam..

korg pnah kn jatuh beskal??agak2 ble last skali jatuh beskal??cbe ingat balek..kisah ni tiada haiwan y cedera parah atau basikal rosak x brfungsi atau bju seluar y trkoyak sbb jatuh beskal..cume tuan pnye bdn je y brdarah sane sini...atleast bley la nk kayuh beskal balik smula lepas jatuh tu..

semalam mmg la..heeee..
petang nye konon la nk maen2 kt luar..played badminton with my sis..then decided to go for a ride around the neighbourhood wit the bike..then strolling happily..ala2 amek angin gitu..then kt stu prsimpang..tyme tu mmg tgh laju la..bajet nk speed la kononnye..huhuu..malang mmg x ley nk bau...saw a cat-break is not working-not avoiding the cat..the rest is history..dooongg..ouchh...!!bloody here and there..scratch...
then balik rmh x brkate spatah..x toleh blakang sket pon...kayuh beskal mcm xdepae y brlaku..menahan sakit..ble nk basuh luka tu kt luar bru la prasan y mmg byk tmpt y brdarah..adooii...mmg la..

pedih woo..tpi ok la kot sbb no major injuries..just scratch n cuts at certain parts of my body..but still effect my motor skill these past two days..typing is hard especially..

but then mlm smlm JERMAN vs ENGLAND...hehehehe..actually like both team n rooting for both of them..both are my all time feveret..so either team wins is a happy ending for me..hehehe..so we all knew that the Germans won..yahoooo..!!sorry England..oh to who ever read this by any chance are rooting for either one of them don't banned my blog..just happy to whom winning..but still not quite satisfied with the "controversial goal " by frank lampard if not mistaken...why didn't that count when clearly it was in..i'm sure that one goal would have made things diffrent if it was count as a goal...the scores would have been diffrent..still..

mesti korg trtnye2 ape kaitn nye antra 2 "bnde" y dicritakn di atas..well tuk crita y pertama tu nikmat y Allah brikan kt kte tu klu Dian nk tarik sekejap pon da boley trjadi..klu tarik sket pon da bley susah hidup kte...in a way i look at it is that i wasn't using them as i should..org kte kufur nikmat la dgn kte laen....sgguh mnyedarkn..tu la kdg2 mmg kne jatuh..kne sakit..kne susah dlu bru la nk kte insaf..so kne la muhasabah diri n jgn la jln atas muka bumi Allah ni dgn begitu sombong mcm kte ni da cukup lengkap n sempurna segala nye...naseb baek jgk jatuh tuu biar sedar sket kt sy ni y asyik lalai je...sedar diri and wake up..!!

tuk crita kedua tu mmg xde kaitan ye ngn crita atas tu..sje tulis sbb dua2 team feveret brlwn antr stu sama laen...hehehehee..y ni x sure la ade moral ke x..tpi sokonglah GERMANY dlm quater final nnti..haha..:))

**harap kucing tu ok lagi..sbb lpas je tuu kucing tu boley lari lgi..kre ok la tu..harap2 la..
**mcmne nk kemas brg2 ngn xtgn y sakit nie..x kemas la jwb nye..
*menulis dgn menahan sakit..heh..sakit laa..

falling from grace

salam..

b4 ape2..post y b4 nie sbnarye da tulis mggu lps..post bwh ni utk mgu lepas tpi bru post skang sbb hr tu line x clear so br la post hri nie..just a heads up..

so today's post which i'm currently writting n u actually reading it now is this one..

hri nie agk well emo trun naek sket...huu~~-_T..aku da buat stu ksilapn y aku rse smpi skng nie x dpt nk maafkn diri sendiri..huh...nk jdi org y biase pon xley..bkn nye ape kita nie dlihat org so every tindak tanduk tu mmg sume org skeliling tgk...once slip up mmg akn di"bahas" scukup nye..okey harap bole trima kemaafan diri ini....but i can't really put myself to forgive my wrong doings..huh..!!!

mmg mbuka mata la ble ade org tegur kte..sdngkn kte nie sibuk nk tegur org laen tpi kte sniri x jaga prangai, mane la org nk ikut..trase amat memalukn diri sniri n org2 skliling..mmg x best nye prsaan nie..harap anda2 y tau ape y sy tulis nie x ikut langkah y amat trok ini..huu~~~..

tetibe je rse self-esteem trun menjunam mcm jatuh dr burj dubai ke bumi..sgt2 la menjunam..rse nk je benamkn muke dlm tanah mcm sang ostrich slalu buat..hehe..tpi mmg xley trus myorok..it's really not gonna help that way...baiki la tguran tu ye hannan (sdg pujuk hati sniri...)mmg prkara y aku pling tkot skali dah jadi...org dh b"kata2"....mmg sgt la x tau nk letak muka ni..how i wish i can change my face right now...huuh..!!

ya Allah berilah petunjuk kpd ku..hindari aku dr perbuatan maksiat n fitnah...
please jgn ulang lagi oh cik hannan..mmg hati amat x tenteram...x senang..
tpi naseb baek la ade y tegur dr aku ros buat salah...but I AM NOT PERFECT...i hv flaws too that i'm trying my best to "unflaw it"-ade ke prkataan tu..huuuu~~

daa..

p/s: mmg ..... ble org ckp aku ni dah brubah..hv i??sorry for the so-called emo entry..tpi klu xpaham psl ape aku tulis nie xpe la...xyah la ssh2 nk paham kn sbb x masok final y akn brlangsung mmgu dpn..tension nih..huh!!
**someone..do make me laugh..for real...*_T...

need to move faster or else...

indeed i need to move faster and work extra harder..
after raye break i really2 BREAK...and almost shattered..still in the healing process..
somehow that seems not be working so well becoz things juz get crazier each week..juz felt coudln't take it anymore..

juz need to re-organize or is it too late to get things sort out..Allah please help me angd guide to the right path...lots of challange needed to be faced and not to turn away from it..juz wish if i have the strenght to coop up with all of these...

there is enough sheds of tears...juz have to move faster ahead of time..but that always become a factor and can't be ahead of it...hopeless..T_T..

"never waits till the last minute" or second in my case...learn it the hard way though..but am i learning from it or juz let it passes through me like the wind blows...is it the blows too subtle to be felt or am i too numb to feel it or is becoz i had 'fall' as the wind blows...

the blows is getting very nasty each time..its the matter of falling or become one with the wind and move faster as it blows...moves with the wind and moves with the flow...but did't have the courage to follow it..afraid if being blown to the desserted place...

make wise decision n action...n act and decide NOW...no time too lose anymore...not enough time..juz not enough...and still not enough...isk..isk..isk..

tension + terkezut + tersentap

NiKki,

ade la stu hri slasa mgu lpas la....sgt la emosiku trgangu....

1st: tgah hr pkul 1 tu ada test...physics plak 2... soklan dy quite tough la...mrkh pon da dpt n agk trok gak la result nye...tension ladibwt nye ngn x ley jwp...cam susa gle nk jwp....mmg tuk cheptr tu ene lebey fokus lg...huhuhuhu..

tp in the meantime ngah dok jwp 2 tetibe trgrk ati nk tgk jam kt hp...ade la bout 20min b4 test tmt...tptetibe nmpk kt phone 2 ade stu msg...so dok tpikir gk la spe y bg sg 2 ngh test ny...tp x tgk la msg 2 tyme 2...nk tgu abes test br nk tgk...pas test cek la hp 2...rupe2 nye msg from my mom saying dat (sort of like dis)"abah xccidnt wif all da kids(my sisters)..." n I was like really SHOCKED n dun noe wat to think....!!??
but she did mntion dat tye all wr safe...despite dat I called her to ask about da true story....she said dat tye r safe but da car was all smashed up at the front...alhamdulillah sume slamt...
then my fren ask me wat was dat all bout n right then I burst up into tear...T_T...
myb coz of the SHOCKING effect plus wit the prior incdnt of phy test = T_T...
then I called my dad to make sure things r fine...he was hving sum pain on da chest coz of da impact of da xccidnt.....

mcm la emosi aku x ckup kacau hri 2...ada plk prisa MSG y x mnyihat kn palk kne gaul dlm emosi aku hri tu....TEKANAN...!!!!

direct aftr test 2 de prsntation prjct phy....wlpun my group had finished our prsntation last week we stillhv 2 come for the others who don't....so went thre wit my melodramatic feeling/mood...still hv sum tears hre n thre...tp gagah kn jgk pgi kals phy tue....dan2 mood ngh cam2 ada plak y meng'condam' my group's projct...brasap jgk kot tyme2...tp mdm bck-up la...tp bkn group ke org je y kne mpis ngn bbrpe group y lelain pn kene...sbar je la....

haru btol hri tu...sangat la....jiwa mmg kacau dgn secukup rse....siap trlebey suda.....huhuhuhuhu:((