childhood era..

hari ni n hari sblom2 ni trase nk balik smula ke zaman kanak2..tetibe rase rindu ngn zaman tu..
hal ini jgk turut trdorong oleh post spupu ku dhuha..n also gmbr y kwn2 aku upload kt fb...gmbr klas y dlu2..sgguh mngimbau kenangan lampau...(bunyi nye da mcm lame beno...hehee)

skg nie mmg betol2 rindu kan zaman maen2 barbie dolls, maen blakon2, maen make up, zaman bile je balik ke rmh che ayoh y kami(1st class spupus) tido pkul 3-4 pagi(kkndg smpi x tido lngsung) sbb brcerita, catch up, n buat2 crita hantu..[astu maen2 smbung cerita y last2 jadi cite y ntah pape..how i miss all those times..huhuhuhuuuu...

asla balik kb je mesti ade je bnde y akn kami kerjakn..mesti ade je projct2 baru....dlu kecik2 pon kami mmg sgt kreatif n sgt brimaginasi tinggi....sgala bende y ade kt umah che ayoh tu akn kami gne kn sbgai props tuk menjayakn project2 kami....from che rah's wardrobe n makeup, to ayoh's radio(skag rosak dah kot)...even at the rooftop of the house kte maen....mmg alatn mainan x ckup kot tyme tu...tu yg smpi maen bende2 tu sume...heheheeee...

pastu dh mmg ditakdirkn la kot y kte ni mmg ske ngan mnde y dipnggil kamera tu...wktu dlu pnah la maen blakon2 cinderalla....dgn bju2 di"sponsor", kami merakm adegan2 dlm cite cinderalla tu gne vdeo cam...hahaha..betape fanatic nye we all ngn kamera..kecik2 da pndai rakam sniri...skg ni rakam plak vdeo2 n lebey advance lgi upload kt youtube..heheheee....

ade plak stu mase tu kami bukak kelas seni mmpertahankn diri y intructor nye cik edd..hehe...ingt lagi ape y diajar tuu.."1 kick, 3 punches"....pastu maen bomoh2 la....y ubat bomoh tu coklat..tu y best nye..hahaha...

we all pon ske bebenor jln2 kt sekitar kwsn prumahan che ayoh tu..ade smpi rse nye da kuar kwsn prumahan tu....brkonvoi ramai2...pegi je ntah mane2...ske ati je jln..pdhal x taw pon selok belok kt situ...redah je...tpi still akn jumpe jln pulang jgk akhirnye walupon pnah la hmpir2 nk sesat....tpi rsenye jln nk balik tuu mesti kteorg ikut jln jauh y lalu tepi2 jln raye y sibuk....

byk sngguh memori dulu kala....u know what, i think that childhood time is the best time to really enjoy urself being urself with out really being affected by the outsiders....how i cherish those moments.....

tpi ble da besar2 ni kurang cket dpt jumpe y btol2 cukup ahli 1st class spupus...mesti je ade i famly y x dpy nk jumpe...huhuhuuu...ble ye kali trakhir kte sume btol2 jumpe stu korum...haa wktu bwt vdeo y stop motion tuu-raya metal...tu je y last skali jumpe sume wktu raye taun lepas..dlm vdeo tu pon siap ade plakon tmbahn...bole la..heheheheheheee..btw ammar ske btol tgk vdeo tu..dye pling ske part faris ing n epi y byk2 tgn tu..hahahaa..dy ske nk tiru buat..


ble lagi nk jumpe you all sume...???huhuhuuu.....

class started

alhamdulillah..dah mule masuk klas as a degree student..

for a starter, as my sis said"so far soo good"..hehehe..



dah brjumpe ngn sume classmate..n sume nmpk mcm ok2 je..yg amek degree course ni cume 44org je..so kami ade hanya 2 klas je..bdk2 klas aku byk nye dri uitm jengka..ada bbrapa dri arau n 7 org je y dri penang-2 pompn n 5 laki..n yes klas nie rmai laki2..

hri ni jgk ade pejumpaan ngn tim dekan FKA..dia terangkn dgn pnjng lebar psl progm nie..at the same time dia bagi kata2 smngt tuk kteorg suro move on n just keep going..kne brpdangn jauh n ubah cara kte (org melayu) brfikir..jgn duduk di takuk lama...tetibe rse cam skit brsmgt...hehehe....

so dah tetap la n teguh utk tr0s kn course degree nie....bak kte member aku da "tegar" utk tr0skn..hehehe...
kene fikir positive then baru senang nk berjaya...yup..!!ske kate2 tu..

so hannan -->think positve n be posituve...!!!(6_<)

New Mood

update..update..
tahun sudah baru...hehe..byk y berlaku tahun lepas..lets take a step back into last year..just for review..tahun lepas ade turun naek nye..mcm biase la..ini dri segi aku di uni..

tahun lepas da dpt habiskn 2 semster..
semester pertama tahn lps sgt mmberangsangkn...dan bole diktekn semester yang aku amat enjoy but at the same time quite successful..i enjoyed the hardwork that i did and it paid off just as much as i worked for it..that's the best time i had so far since entering the uni life..

semester kedua thn lepas quite diff..sume nye mcm a bit off cket..may be too over joyed..i'm off with my BB(best buddy)..not really synchronising well...bring lots of tears..until at some point felt that i'm done crying(mcm "cukup la..da byk sgt y trleleh")..its really testing me phsyically and especially emotionally...very tough..and my pointer is also a miss...move on now..

that was a quick step back..hehehe..cket2 suda..
okey this year will be a bit diffrent from last year..i've made up my mind to proceed with the degree course..despite all of my friends are not with me..huhuu..saye kseorgn ni..kwn2 sume nk stay buat dip...agak berbelah bagi mase nk buat kputusn nie..a very big "step" from me who never takes any "steps" before..sblm ni I just take a baby steps je..haha..sedey...cabaran baru as we grow older to make us wiser in future year...

azam y sebenar hanya dlm hati ku...tapi harap sume brjln lancar spnjng tahun nie..dan brharap yg trbaek untk tahun nie..n also hoping this year x akn mboros cos hehehe ade penaja setia ku jpa n pa'ma..hehehee..tapi mukin pa'ma akn mgurangkan pnajaan nye sbb ade jpa..hahaha...jgn boros ye hannan...pndai2 gne duit tuu ye..-->baek!!!!

pesanan trakhir:brjimat utk kesejahteraan y brpanjangn...n kwn2 sila jgn lupakn sye ye..sy pasti akn rindu kamu sume...jom kite blaja brsungguh2...chaiyok~~!!!!<:-)

D for dilemma

warning:might involve some emo feelings n maybe this entri will lead to nowhere in the end..we'll see hw it turns out..

D for:

dilemma of diploma
dilemme og degree

i'm in the midst of dilemma of choosing somehow i describe it as a the "one way ticket" of life. it means if i chose the other way, there's no way of turning back..must make very2 determined n follow through decision...it's involve my future...argh...can't decide it right now..

i'm babbling about the fact that i hv to choose whether to further my study to degree or just proceed the diploma program which i'm currently am studying right now-that is about to enter the 4th sem(2nd year, 2nd sem)....

one way or the other...


both choices hv their pros n cons n concern that i hv to take into account of-very carefully consider...if i just proceed with what i'm currently doing right now i'll be graduating the dip in another 1 n half yr..then proceed to the degree-with the good result of course-starting from the 2nd yr(from the 3rd sem) until the 6th sem..which is another 4 sem before graduating as n engineer...this of course i will hv my friend from the dip prog with me...

however if i decide to choose to further my study to degree, i'll start immediately-entering it the as soon as this semeter starts...it's gone be shocked to my system-it can be overcome as time passes by...i'll be starting from the 1st of the deg prog until the 6th sem..if so, i pass with flying colour, it will be short of about 1 sem compared if i finish dip prog n go to deg prog...

this hw i felt right now....

but most of my friends don't want to take risk of failing to finish the deg prog n not having the dip cert...

its very confusing~~....

then there is the jpa schrlshp...they say that if we presented the offer letter to further the study to deg prog they can support us through...it's like an oppertunity to study deg with the sponsored of jpa...jimat duit ummi abah skaligus..haaiish~...

tpi diri ni bole ke trus ke degree???itu prsoalan trbesar nye..am i prepared if i'm going to further it without the support of my friend...tell u the truth, half of my strength is from my friend..da la hidup jauh ngn family lg la rse sgt br'support'kn kwn...mmg x ley nk diri ngn kaki sniri la aku ni...

yg prog deg tu pon da la kt kmpus penang jgk..pn jauh sme family...tpi dgr2 ade baek nye jgk..becoz bdk nye x de rmai mcm kt s.alam..n lectr pn akn lebey tumpu pd kte..mkin akn mbntu kot tyme study nnti..tpi it's all up to urself jgk la..

suda makin konfius nk pilih mane satu ni...dilemma2....

one road will u lead to the other side of the world while the other shall lead u the other that shall meet at the one intersection point-sometimes-or other times they won't meet at all in the end...

what a decision to make....ALLAH the all knowing, plaese guide me to make the right decision in my life...

success is a lousy teacher..is it??

i was told by my fren about a saying -"success is a lousy teacher, it seduces us into thinking that we can't lose"-by bill gates...

from my personal POV, i kinda agree to this saying..because this is currently happening to me right now...yup in the the moment of falling into the darkest n deepest valley..hit the rock bottom..



i've had been in the so-called "COMFORT ZONE" for quite sometime..too comfort till no act to improve myself till i got left behind while others moving forward n keep moving faster n faster each day...huuhuu=(

we workhard to achieve our success but by the time we achived them, we fail to maintain it...achiving the success is just an easy thing to do, while trying to maintain it is a whole diffrent story...
true-"a wall wasn't built in one day"..but it takes not more than half a day to break it into pieces..agree anyone??



ble kte dah berjaya kte mesti akn stop usaha2 kte y dlu2...sgala usaha y kte bwat tuk smpi ke thp kejayaan tu kte lupakn dek krn kte pikir 'kte da berjaya..so bwat ape nk trOs kn usaha2 tu..' sgguh x istiqamah...
dah tu ble kte da mula rse nk jatuh balek-jatuh y smpi brguling2 x henti2-bru mcm sedar x sedar..tpi bwat slambe je..xde nk mula brusaha mcm dulu..tpi ble btol2 dh jatuh, bru trsedar..tpi tyme tu mmg agk trlambat la...

kesimpulannye..kte mmg akn jatuh walaupun kte dah capai kejayaan kte tu..so jgn la taksub sgt dgn kjayaan kte tue sbb sume nye x kn kekal lame..life is like a wheel..sometime you are at the top n other time you are at the bottom..just face the fact that we cannot always be on top..

lagi stu..jgn terlalu mudah rse selasa dgn keadaan kte skrg smpi x bwt ape 2 prubhan tuk improve diri kte..dgr tu hannan..huhuhu..
kadang2 kte perlu sbanrnye tuk jatuh seketika..supaya kte dpt bgn smula dgn smagt y baru...dan dgn harapan smgt tu x akn sparuh jln je..sy prcaya y sume org2 yg dh well success skrg ni mesti ade down moment msing2..spe yg x pnah jtuh tu jga2 la..tkot2 nnti ble skali tr"slip" tkot kang x ley trima knyataan..

pnah ade kwn kt sekolah dlu y mmg bole kte sgt pndai la n always je dpt kptusn y bgOs tyme pekse..tpi one day don't where/what went wrong, she got the average score which is below average for her stndrd..trOs dye cam lost..tu la akibat nye ble kte pikir y kte ni dh bgos sgt smpi x ley nk gagal dlm prkara y kecik skali pn..same la dgn diriku jua...

tpi klu betol2 istiqamah insyallah kejayaan tu akn bertrusan..tpi mesti ade ujian y akn kte kne tempuhi..bkn senang2 je Allah nk bgi kte berjaya...even Rasulullah sendiri pn dapt byk ujian dlm mjlnkn dakwah tyme di mekah dlu...ape kn lagi kite ni...



so..jgn stop smpi situ je..trOs kn usaha anda..n jgn brada di zon selesa je..sbb da rse selasa tu kte pn ckp"x pe la.."jgn sesekali camtu ye hannan..huuh..