moving on

salam..

after previous post i was taken aback a bit..but those who still have life in their soul should move on..pick up your pace..

so did my-suppose-to-complete-in-the-holiday-proposal..manage only to re-do the introduction-background..previous one macam tak satisfying enuf for moi..want to proceed to problem statement but caught up with the urge to stop..haha..buat baru sikit nak rehat..rabu dah kot hannan oii!ketok jugak budak ini..hai3~

why so no mood to do this proposal..grrr..

so the hot topic currently is the 13th General Election (13th GE) or oso know as PRU13..woot3!
ermm sy pon xreti pasal politik..jujur cakap.xreti. amik port la jgk tapi kurang faham lagi..byk kene baca lagi lah rasa nye..rasanye umo mcm ni mmg patot2 sgt la reti2 kan diri pasal politik ni..sebab sooner or later we are what the country have..tak kan lah ciri2 orang nye tak amik port psl politik gara2 alasan sy student dan politik bukan untuk pelajar..eh~ penah tak terdetik dalam hati camni? hmm...

you know what...the decision made by the political leader-whom yang kte ckp xnk amk port tulah-akan secara lansung/tidak langsung akan effect diri kita when we work so on so forth nnti..even masa tgh belajar ni pon effect jugak..seriously!

every votes counts.
and they just loose one vote sbb sy pon sedey sbb xdpt join voting for PRU13-which for me looks like a big change is in the making..maybe new chapter for malaysia..insyaAllah..kte undi Allah tentukan:)
sebab gara2 tak mendaftar dgn segera..pengajaran tuk diri ini..daftar awal2 lain kali..huu..sungguh kesedaran peri pentingnya politik amat lambat lah jugak tuk diri ini..

so to para pengundi2 sekalian y membaca ini..undilah tuk masa depan yang lebih baik..tor betterment of future..make a change..your vote counts:)

akhir kalam: biru pah dale! ^__^

point blank~

......

i'm nervous.
i'm clueless.
i'm scared.
i'm don't know.
i'm also not sure.
i'm confused.
need answers.
but don't know how to ask.
more questions.
a question answered with another question give no answer.
but instead added more questions.
afraid to ask.
afraid of the option.
afraid of the answer given.
afraid of the uncertainties.
the unknown is wild.
its always ended up with maybe-s

heart make dua to Allah.alwaysalwysalways.
guide me.
.......

mariku tulis di sini sekejap

as salam..

ye seperti biasa lah..baru berpeluang nak update my blog..beloq y satu ni..hee..

penat lah study...diverging my thought for a while..just finished reading some articles..actually for the coming usrah..about "dunia islam" means berita terkini pasal hal-hal yang berlaku di luar sana mainly involving the ummat..hey penting tau tuk amek tahu pasal perkara ni sume ye..jgn duk tgk kat dalam malaysia-dlm malaysia lagi pening rasa nya..isu2 y ntah ape2 je..dunia islam kt luar sana lagi serius masalah dan perjuangan nya..itu medan mereka..medan jihad kat malaysia laen plak cerita nya..

anyways...kita kene amek tahu jgk ape2 yang berlaku kat luar sana..don't just study je..nati jadi pelajar yang belajar je..saya nak jadi pendakwah yang belajar..*tingggG

xde ape sgt nak di-update-kan di sini..melain kan y trip cancel..(ckp kat sini lagi selamat rasa nya..xde dr. nak komen..huuu..jgn gelak please!) penat2 je mereka2 buat gerak kerja sume..last2 terpaksa di-cancel-kan..sbb sebab2 yang xdapat nak elak..y tukang pikir ni pon da xtau nak pikir lagi dah..next time insyaAllah..insyaAllah.. ade hikmah xleh pegi ni..suh blaja..test berderetan sih..sila lah belajar hannan..kut nak pegi jgk..awk sibuk xdan nk blaja..org laen pon sibuk..jgn kaco mereka..maaf korg ye..trip cancel..rugi jgk..but insyaAllah next time..trip ni xwajib pon..blaja tu lagi wajib..(ayat pujuk diri sendiri :\ )
but anyhow..thank you to those who had helped the wokrs until yesterday before i announced that it was cancel..you guys helped a lot..backed me up when needed..seriously shocked up to that level you guys supported me although such action should have been avoided..you guys are great friend..! glad having you guys as a friend..may Allah bless you all..good luck! (mcm ucapan ape je..)

sedey2 je..but ntah lah...through out this experience we can know who is a true friend..i gain a lot of experience i personally think that this trip tripped a lot..may be because i'm the head of the trip..i do tripped off a lot of times (if you know what i meant..haha) but seriously..sgt banyak nye dugaan..maybe a sign from Allah that its not gonna make it..but you hannan still keep going ignoring all the signs..such ignorant person..ish3..i've been in the "gerak kerja" trip for 2-3 places..and seriously this one really a messed up case...lots of may-be-s want to state here..but it just make me a person who gives a lot of excuse..
"what is flash flood got to do with them coming late to my class"-quoted dr.hisbany-jap tuka topic sat..seriously had nothing to do between two cases..seriously! sokong dr.hisbany but x sokong dy nak maen tolak2 marks org sesuke hati..tu je..*peace V(*_*)V hampir nak nanges nk reason y sebenar tu..seriously..!
where am i just now...yeah the trip-me giving lots of may-be-s..yeah..so probably i won't take up that position again..probably not in this short period of time..not a good leader..find someone who can really lead next time..pasni nk pegang watak tepi2 je..hoho..

ok need to continue study now..lots need to cover...so little time lots and tonnes to do..!
on that note..i hate myself right now..dushH..!

tata..
**ummi abah najiah iman adek an ammar are all currently in penang..oh how i wish i'm there with them..penang..i miss penang all of sudden..missing the moments there..place where i learn what need to be learn..

10 years~

as salam..

10 tahun akan datang..insyaAllah klu masih di beri kesempatan nyawa utuk sampi ke sepuluh tahun lagi hayat ni..ape y akan sy buat yeh...??

hmmm..some say i'll be replacing my mum..meaning being an engineer or being a mum..hmmm..probably both..insyaAllah :D

hmmm..the same person also said that i might be like prof jun-my lecturer in uni..great one..somehow seeing a bit of my mum in prof jun..workwise that is..hehe..hmmm...hmmm...dunno~

and that very same person also said that i'll get married...hmmm..hmmm..hmmm...find me one lah then we can talk..haha..joking~ sure i want to get married some point later in my life...when will it be..hmmm...wallahualam~

but the later is way out of prospective of discussion..way way off topic..haha..ade ke~adey~(--.--")

actually this came about because abah asked me before..where should we settled down when he(abah) n ummi retired later in years..that is about likely be in 10 years time..hmmmm...means where do we(kami2 anak dy) want to live..here in bangi or be backed in kuantan..hmmm...

for me..for this time being..being in bangi is ok..ok means xnak pindah..hehe..mungkin sbb da mula selesa dgn keadan..heh..it took about 6 years huh to finally said ok..haha..i tend to hold on the past much longer than i thought..haha..ape lah..maybe the condition of the house overall plays the role..are been renovated last year..makin suka dgn rumah di bangi...

plus mst of the sepupus are here..nearby the area..area around selangor/KL/nilai..its easier to see each other..get together or family gathering is awaited..hehe..with all the foods and the chit chatting..yep! sukeeeE~

its also near to school-uni...i can easily be backed home..hahaHAHA...plus i think being in selangor is stratigic..it is in the middle of the map..kak is in johor and i was a while ago in penang..so home is in the middle..made it more near to home..dannN sekarang dah kt shah alam lagiii lahhhh dekat nyeee~wee~

well back to the question..in 10 years time to come..i'll be what..31 year old by then..i'm sure i'll be finishing my studies..have a job..be married..maybe have a kid..hohoho(its funny thinking of the future like this..LOL)
haha..its ok either place actually...but its is good to be backed to where your're born and raised which is in kuantan..hmmm...but if ummi n abah wanted to stay here in bangi it's also ok..hmmm...
all in all it's fine either way..i hate making choices like this..phuuu...

days left in penang

salam...

there is good news and of course there's also bad new..which one you want to hear??...
I'll tell you the bad news first becoz i was once told that it's better to have happy ending..

so what's the bad new..??well I'm moving..yep not gonna be in penang for the next semester..huuuu..really gonna leave all my friends here..surely will miss you all so very much..back in this early semester, I wasn't feeling like being parted with my friends although I continuing to the degree prog becoz I'm still in penang...same campus as them..can still see the or bump into them wherever or whenever in the campus..but thing are gonna change when I'm moving from penang..really hate this parted thing....

I had been really close to them..they are like my family here...kinda my strength...when firstly parted from my best friend, I felt like losing my right hand...but as time being I got adjusted but it wasn't that far as we can still meet each other whenever we want..when I'm moving, cannot la see her like I used to..huuuu....

I'm also gonna really miss my IKRAMies...we are all connected merely as people who are organizing an organization, instead, we are more like families to each other...not once after knowing what IKRAM really is that i felt like an outsider to the other members...everyone is very2 helpful, kind, backing each other...we cried and laughed together...
I had once trying to make some weird kinda decision...I kinda made promise to myself to choose between IKRAM and other society I'd joined in case of being busy n can't keep up between both..that i would choose only one..but how can u choose over family..so I stayed on for both..heee..can't let go either one..and I'm glad I'd made that decision...

so where am I shifted..??well I have to say is pretty close to home..closer than penang of course..moving to shah alam..if there is no problem arise, I'll be in shah alam for the remaining years of studies..in some way other than being closer to home, i think is good for change of wind sometimes..although I think shah alam will be a lot tougher n bigger not to mention..I'll take it as a challenge...(nape ntah ske bnde2 y challenge..y biase2 x mo plak..adui..)may be it is needed in the maturing process..back in penang I think I'm too dependent on the lecturer...we'll see what's going to happen to me..whether it's going to be well or upside down..I'm hoping for the best in my life..only Allah knows what's best...insyaAllah...

well if it is closer to home, other things that excites me is that the chance of me to attend whatever family event held, is very high-if I'm not busy with the studies that is...more time at home i guest..heheheee...may be more time as well for the beloved cousins who are soon-two of them-gonna fly2 to other continents..exaggerating..hahaha..-ntah sempat ke alin tgk aku kawin nnti..hahahaaaha...

well both places are equally have pros n cons of their own..can really argue much..hoping everything will go well..tata..salam..

New Mood

update..update..
tahun sudah baru...hehe..byk y berlaku tahun lepas..lets take a step back into last year..just for review..tahun lepas ade turun naek nye..mcm biase la..ini dri segi aku di uni..

tahun lepas da dpt habiskn 2 semster..
semester pertama tahn lps sgt mmberangsangkn...dan bole diktekn semester yang aku amat enjoy but at the same time quite successful..i enjoyed the hardwork that i did and it paid off just as much as i worked for it..that's the best time i had so far since entering the uni life..

semester kedua thn lepas quite diff..sume nye mcm a bit off cket..may be too over joyed..i'm off with my BB(best buddy)..not really synchronising well...bring lots of tears..until at some point felt that i'm done crying(mcm "cukup la..da byk sgt y trleleh")..its really testing me phsyically and especially emotionally...very tough..and my pointer is also a miss...move on now..

that was a quick step back..hehehe..cket2 suda..
okey this year will be a bit diffrent from last year..i've made up my mind to proceed with the degree course..despite all of my friends are not with me..huhuu..saye kseorgn ni..kwn2 sume nk stay buat dip...agak berbelah bagi mase nk buat kputusn nie..a very big "step" from me who never takes any "steps" before..sblm ni I just take a baby steps je..haha..sedey...cabaran baru as we grow older to make us wiser in future year...

azam y sebenar hanya dlm hati ku...tapi harap sume brjln lancar spnjng tahun nie..dan brharap yg trbaek untk tahun nie..n also hoping this year x akn mboros cos hehehe ade penaja setia ku jpa n pa'ma..hehehee..tapi mukin pa'ma akn mgurangkan pnajaan nye sbb ade jpa..hahaha...jgn boros ye hannan...pndai2 gne duit tuu ye..-->baek!!!!

pesanan trakhir:brjimat utk kesejahteraan y brpanjangn...n kwn2 sila jgn lupakn sye ye..sy pasti akn rindu kamu sume...jom kite blaja brsungguh2...chaiyok~~!!!!<:-)

D for dilemma

warning:might involve some emo feelings n maybe this entri will lead to nowhere in the end..we'll see hw it turns out..

D for:

dilemma of diploma
dilemme og degree

i'm in the midst of dilemma of choosing somehow i describe it as a the "one way ticket" of life. it means if i chose the other way, there's no way of turning back..must make very2 determined n follow through decision...it's involve my future...argh...can't decide it right now..

i'm babbling about the fact that i hv to choose whether to further my study to degree or just proceed the diploma program which i'm currently am studying right now-that is about to enter the 4th sem(2nd year, 2nd sem)....

one way or the other...


both choices hv their pros n cons n concern that i hv to take into account of-very carefully consider...if i just proceed with what i'm currently doing right now i'll be graduating the dip in another 1 n half yr..then proceed to the degree-with the good result of course-starting from the 2nd yr(from the 3rd sem) until the 6th sem..which is another 4 sem before graduating as n engineer...this of course i will hv my friend from the dip prog with me...

however if i decide to choose to further my study to degree, i'll start immediately-entering it the as soon as this semeter starts...it's gone be shocked to my system-it can be overcome as time passes by...i'll be starting from the 1st of the deg prog until the 6th sem..if so, i pass with flying colour, it will be short of about 1 sem compared if i finish dip prog n go to deg prog...

this hw i felt right now....

but most of my friends don't want to take risk of failing to finish the deg prog n not having the dip cert...

its very confusing~~....

then there is the jpa schrlshp...they say that if we presented the offer letter to further the study to deg prog they can support us through...it's like an oppertunity to study deg with the sponsored of jpa...jimat duit ummi abah skaligus..haaiish~...

tpi diri ni bole ke trus ke degree???itu prsoalan trbesar nye..am i prepared if i'm going to further it without the support of my friend...tell u the truth, half of my strength is from my friend..da la hidup jauh ngn family lg la rse sgt br'support'kn kwn...mmg x ley nk diri ngn kaki sniri la aku ni...

yg prog deg tu pon da la kt kmpus penang jgk..pn jauh sme family...tpi dgr2 ade baek nye jgk..becoz bdk nye x de rmai mcm kt s.alam..n lectr pn akn lebey tumpu pd kte..mkin akn mbntu kot tyme study nnti..tpi it's all up to urself jgk la..

suda makin konfius nk pilih mane satu ni...dilemma2....

one road will u lead to the other side of the world while the other shall lead u the other that shall meet at the one intersection point-sometimes-or other times they won't meet at all in the end...

what a decision to make....ALLAH the all knowing, plaese guide me to make the right decision in my life...