setahun lalu..tahun kini

assalam

lets flash back..to the last year..by last year i meant to the last year in tahun hijrah..biase tahun masihi kan..jom tuka angin sekejap..

p/s: mmg lambat sikit lah masa nya..sbb actually regarding maulidur rasul..huu

as I checked back the calender and also my previous posts..it falls back to the time I went to hiking..according to masihi calender it was due to next month if consider it last year..but if its according to hijr calender..it was right after 12 rabiulawal me and my friend went hiking to KK..so why I bring this up eh?

actually to reflect back..how different things are in a year..I think I'm not the same person as a year before..who knows me are you agree?

i felt different..i acted different..i think differently..i meant maybe i have grown up a lil bit..just little bit..so the way I think sort of a bit different..hmm..
well as you grow older you should also think differently..its called maturing with age..true some people said that age is just a number..sometimes people didn't change at all..that is a problem maybe..heh..mungkin~

but we should mature through time..or through experience..setuju?

let that be your pause and ponder moment..

now back to the date of 12 rabiul awal..well its none other speacial occasion of our beloved prophet muhammad SAW..
it didn't hit me as hard as this year about the important of keeping his sunnah alive..a year ago and years before I was like other people..most people kot..just celebrating it with the usual stuff..so-called berarak, selawat and stuffs..and mmg so common lah kalau kat malaysia tuk anak2 sekolah berarak satu kampung sambil berselawat..yep itu suatu suasana yang sy penah tempuhi..every tahun hijrah dtg..dtg tarikh ini..akan sambut mcm ini..ye..mmg tidak lah salah langsung..sebab berselawat ke ats Baginda rasulullah amat2 digalakkan..sila teruskan berselawat:)

but then..there is no meaning to me..to me ok..from my prospective..dri pandangan sorg budak daif ini..mcm..its that all I can do for him after so much he did for us..dlm hadith y sohih (xingt riwayat ny) on the day of resurrection (hari kita dihidupkan smula lepas mati) the first thing Rasulullah thought of is his ummat..ingat tak ustaz penah cerita yang masa Rasulullah nak wafat tu pon perkara terakhir dia sebut2 ialah umati umati umati (umatku umatku umatku)

dan siapa ummat Rasulullah? KITA lah..!

cinta nya Baginda pada kita..subhanallah..!

tapi kita cinta ke Rasulullah mcm itu?atau lebih?

so ape je lagi yang boleh kita buat tuk Rasulullah selain berselawat ke atasnya..?
hidupkan lah sunnah2 Rasulullah..dan ketahuilah sunnah nya yang terbesar itu adalah menyampaikan Islam keseluruh alam..

erkk..berat tu..even gunung pon bila Allah nak bagi tanggungjawab ini dia xberani..kita pulak?how are we?how are our iman?

something interesting happend to me this day of maulidur rasul..maybe some penah undergo such situations..that is interviewing the public..

and our task (during daurah) to do interview about maulidur rasul to public..and i was very excited (although tak tunjuk dengan action tapi dlm hati ekseted nak buat interbiu ni..ehehee) so i thought how was their (people's reaction) reaction..sure they knew him..we came up with a question: what character of Rasulullah that you like? something like that..and to none-muslim we asked the same..but before we asked do they knew who is Rasulullah..

and i was actually quite surprised that some know Rasulullah well and that is the none-muslim who said the beautiful character of Rasulullah..amaze!
and also shocked that so-called muslim didn't know much..some even refuse to answer..kami bersangka baik to that person maybe shy..hmm..
the reaction was really and eye opener to me..seriously..it trigger something inside me..huh~

as for all the reactions we recorded..and make a short video of all interviews done..yang mention kat atas tu about my group..other group also got some shocking reactions..
as i recall..the question was what if Rasulullah is here with you right now..? and that person answer was: I won't get day off (kalau rasulullah ade sy xdpt lah cuti hari ni) and when i heard it first time I was like seriuosly! no day off?! seriously!! errkkk~

mungkin reaksi aku tu teruk..huu..

terdetik lah saat tu..kerje kita masih banyak lagi..banyak lagi..jalan ini masih panjang..

so to that lets reflect ourselves back..how much love is our love to Rasulullah..to Him Almighty?
do check up on your heart..

mari menjadi hamba~

point blank~

......

i'm nervous.
i'm clueless.
i'm scared.
i'm don't know.
i'm also not sure.
i'm confused.
need answers.
but don't know how to ask.
more questions.
a question answered with another question give no answer.
but instead added more questions.
afraid to ask.
afraid of the option.
afraid of the answer given.
afraid of the uncertainties.
the unknown is wild.
its always ended up with maybe-s

heart make dua to Allah.alwaysalwysalways.
guide me.
.......

just coming around

as salam..

as written above..just-almost finishing the browse thru the reading list and clicking a few interesting posts..ok simple words just finishing blog browsing..daa:P this is one of things that rarely can do right at this moment because i'm so preoccupied with other stuff right now..i kinda miss the movie watching time..any movies..because of the same reason..sokmo ckp nk tgk lah malam ni..but in the end i ended p doing something else..huah~sight~~

something is changing a bit here and there..it good lah..changing is good once in a while..just make the right change move..and i'm here kinda stuck somewhere..huhu..need to be more motivated..the thing is i talk and tell to others this and that..but fail to follow what had been said..sadsad me..`:(

anyways~ yes we need to be driven..!what drive me here in SA-doing degree in civil engineering plus joining all sort of activity and attending meeting here and there plus joinig usrah-katibah-daurah and all that surround that...? why ?ever think about that readers..why you do the thing that you do right now...? it did popped in my mind not many days later..just suddenly-like in the tired mind and body of that day- i popped this question to myself..i'm not defying the fact or the takdir i'm doing this..just why..more like the reason...i'm soon to be an engineer (insyaAllah) so reasoning do take into account..but not everything need a reason..

do reflect back the reason of being "here"..hmmm..muhasabah diri semula..

WARNING!!

okeh ni masok mood ranting kejap..sila lah baca kalu mahu..kalu tidak sila lah berlalu :)

this semester mark the day that i really don't like is thursday...because (reasoning again~) that day my schedule is packed from 8.30am to 5pm..not so much you might say but th e amount of stress always elevated that day.. ALWAYS i repeat again..ntah lah..asal hari tu je nak terbanjir..don't know why..vulnerable betul hari tu..it always started with a lot of laugh and ended with sadness..tu lah kot sebab nya..ummi cakap ketawa sangat2 nanti menangis..memang kene lah...harap2 lah boleh control emosi ini yang sangat menyesakkan...so if you readers out there that knows me sila jangan terasa bila saya bermuka masam pada hari thursday..or it more like a tearsday then thursday..heh~ donG ``(--.--")
ohh~ writing in here just ease things a bit..hee..


ok..tata (>.~)
**everybody wants to say something..then who's listening then..?! be a good listener people!

10 years~

as salam..

10 tahun akan datang..insyaAllah klu masih di beri kesempatan nyawa utuk sampi ke sepuluh tahun lagi hayat ni..ape y akan sy buat yeh...??

hmmm..some say i'll be replacing my mum..meaning being an engineer or being a mum..hmmm..probably both..insyaAllah :D

hmmm..the same person also said that i might be like prof jun-my lecturer in uni..great one..somehow seeing a bit of my mum in prof jun..workwise that is..hehe..hmmm...hmmm...dunno~

and that very same person also said that i'll get married...hmmm..hmmm..hmmm...find me one lah then we can talk..haha..joking~ sure i want to get married some point later in my life...when will it be..hmmm...wallahualam~

but the later is way out of prospective of discussion..way way off topic..haha..ade ke~adey~(--.--")

actually this came about because abah asked me before..where should we settled down when he(abah) n ummi retired later in years..that is about likely be in 10 years time..hmmmm...means where do we(kami2 anak dy) want to live..here in bangi or be backed in kuantan..hmmm...

for me..for this time being..being in bangi is ok..ok means xnak pindah..hehe..mungkin sbb da mula selesa dgn keadan..heh..it took about 6 years huh to finally said ok..haha..i tend to hold on the past much longer than i thought..haha..ape lah..maybe the condition of the house overall plays the role..are been renovated last year..makin suka dgn rumah di bangi...

plus mst of the sepupus are here..nearby the area..area around selangor/KL/nilai..its easier to see each other..get together or family gathering is awaited..hehe..with all the foods and the chit chatting..yep! sukeeeE~

its also near to school-uni...i can easily be backed home..hahaHAHA...plus i think being in selangor is stratigic..it is in the middle of the map..kak is in johor and i was a while ago in penang..so home is in the middle..made it more near to home..dannN sekarang dah kt shah alam lagiii lahhhh dekat nyeee~wee~

well back to the question..in 10 years time to come..i'll be what..31 year old by then..i'm sure i'll be finishing my studies..have a job..be married..maybe have a kid..hohoho(its funny thinking of the future like this..LOL)
haha..its ok either place actually...but its is good to be backed to where your're born and raised which is in kuantan..hmmm...but if ummi n abah wanted to stay here in bangi it's also ok..hmmm...
all in all it's fine either way..i hate making choices like this..phuuu...

DNA ku~

tetibe ade stu pertanyaan..spe2 y bleh jawp sila la respon ye..

darah kte klu da transfuse DNA x brcampur ke?knape ye?

tetibe trfikir..(`:-I)..